Word of Warning before we begin. I will broach the topic of sexual sin today and my struggles with it. So if your a young one this may be a conversation that is best skipped. I will be tasteful as I can with this subject but it is still what it is. I can tell you this isn't easy to talk about even on a Blog where no one can see me. As I have friends and even family that read this Blog, many of them are going to learn of this for the first time today.
Prayer: Lord help me clear my mind of impure thought and guide me in your word as I draw closer to you. Thank you Lord for all you have done and all you continue to do. Amen
Verse of the Day: "You have heard that i was said, 'You shall not commit adultery.' But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart." Matthew 5:27-28
Worship Song of the Day: Overcome by the Desperation Band
Okay to start off an update on the bible reading. All went well today in my reading. I found myself over reading a bit over my goal. I will continue tomorrow with a similar format, but more of that at the bottom.
On to today's post. This is my first post having to do with a type of sexual sin. This time it took place completely in my mind, but as Jesus said above in Matthew all it takes to be in sin is for your gaze to be lustful. Today I had a moment of weakness. Luckily it never turned physical but I allowed my mind to drift to a certain Hollywood starlet that was on Yahoo today and all I could think was lustful thoughts towards her. I am grateful that I was able to control my physical urges to do something about it but that is far from where I wan to be in this struggle with sexual sin. One of my goals is to, with God's help, transform my mind to where I do not look upon any women but my wife in a sexual manor. I want to get to a point where I recognize beauty with no need to objectify the women that I see. When any of us objectify women in this way we are denying worship to the creator and we are worshiping the creation. Sexual sin is one of self worship.
My struggles with this started when I was quite young. I first viewed a nude women at the age of about 8 and even at that age when I had not reached any sort of sexual maturity I was already hooked. Any excuse to look and watch I was going to take. Even if it was just the bra and pantie ads in the news paper. Being exposed at that age to that skewed my views on right and wrong when it came to sex and prevented me from having a relationship with a women in which I did not try to sexualize things. Even after becoming saved at the age of 14, I still had no idea how to control my mind. I eventually learned that viewing those things and pleasuring myself were indeed sexual sin but at that point I was addicted and I never even thought to seek help in any way.
Fast forward with me to me getting married. I never knew how much my addiction affected my relationships and how much it could have cost me in my marriage. Luckily I am married to a wonderful and understanding partner who has encouraged me and given me great support. There have been times where I was sure I had this thing beat because I would avoid pornography for a few weeks and then in a moment of weakness Satan would drag me back into this world of fake love.
All this time I have thought I can do it all by myself, I don't need anyone to overcome this. The truth is that anyone struggling with addiction needs help. I would not dare put God in a box to say he couldn't or wouldn't instantly deliver someone from any addiction but most of the time God is looking for us to meet him half way. All I'm saying fellas is get a support group. I can promise you guys and gals there are many many others out there struggling with this. Even though its a secret sin that is not often seen by anyone but the sinner and sometimes their family, its still very prevalent in our society. Check with your church and get in a men's group or a women's group and get someone to help keep you accountable.
The second part of dealing with sexual sin is that you have to transform the way your mind views things. The problem I have run into time and again is that I never tried to change my mind from viewing women sexually and just simply tried to avoid seeing women with very little clothing on. Guys transforming your mind is essential to fighting Satan on this. Pastor David said on Sunday we have the choice to take a stand and refuse to objectify women.
Well I am ready to make that stand and I hope all you men out there are ready for that too. If you struggle with this form of sin please email me or talk to a pastor or a friend or someone you can trust. I can tell you if you email me there will be no judgement passed on you. After all this is my struggle as well so how bad would I be to somehow pass judgement on you.
Okay so that may have seemed totally aimed at men but I also want to say that this problem isn't just a problem for men. Though men are wired visually and women typically aren't, doesn't mean that there aren't women who struggle with this same sin. So ladies please do get help yourselves. Go to someone you can trust who isn't a male and get help.
I'm going to leave it at that for now. This subject I'm sure will come up again as it is in ongoing struggle and one that is not easily defeated. But as the worship song of the day says we will overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. That is a powerful tool in our fight with Satan. Don't let your sin stay secret and let it control you any more.
okay on to tomorrows Bible reading. I find that the One Year Bible reading plan hits what I was looking for. Its an OT, NT Psalm and Proverb passage every day. So I will continue this week using this plan.
Psalm 108:1-13
1 Samuel 12-13
John 7:1-30
Proverbs 15:4
Well until next time, blessings to you and yours. And remember we will overcome. Praise to our redeemer and savior Jesus Christ.
Your Brother in Christ,
Brian
Also here is my email for anyone desiring to contact me about our topic today.
WorshipWarrior83@gmail.com.
I admire your courage. There are not very many people who will come out and admit their struggles. Most of us are so bound by shame, guilt, and condemnation or pride. I know that your Father in Heaven is very pleased with you. What a way to fight this battle, head on as the warrior you were created in His image to be.
ReplyDeleteThank you Ace. I appreciate your support. I just hope that more people will recognize how devestating this type sin and addiction can be and will not be afraid to do something about it in their own lives. Blessings
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